Fuck poop doodie

this site is dumb, I'm gonna go pierce my nipples. Somebody make me laugh.

I'm not capable of fun. I don't even know what it is. Apparently, I'm not allowed to. Everyone bitching about "oh, it's so goddamn boring in sacramento, I hate it sooo much, there's never ANYTHING to do, ever." Fuck that shit. I ask to go do things all the time, I ask to tag along, I ask to do anything to get out of the house. None of you want to come over, so fine, don't come over. I know that being uncomfortable around chrisco or whatever is worth not being friends with me. And the fact that I don't drink cool punx rawkz alcoholz. I'm not hardcore vegan with a stenciled shirt. I don't own a bike. Fine, drinking cool punx beer and being fucking dumb is way fucking better than hanging out with me. Thank god I know people in this stupid town so I have a reason not to drink. Snub me, it's all right, what the hell do I care? You know if anyone acted to you the way you acted to me, you'd be talking shit about them and getting people together to beat 'em up punx rawkerz bike hippy cool stylze. Peace out bitches, (except for Drew, he's aiight). And if you want to get your friends over here to act like bitches, don't, have more respect for me than that, and don't be a baby about this post, either. Thanks,

-Eric

just to clear the air here, I wanted to say that nobody who reads this livejournal was included in the post before this one. I don't post about people on livejournal who might read it. I write notes about them and flush them down the toilet so the alligators can know who's ass to bite. Haha, jay kay. Alligators can't read.

I've noticed lately the reason people come over is to ask for things. Well, no matter what it is now, no matter what it is, the answer is NO! I'm sick of lending out hair dye and movies and books and everything else and not getting it back. I'm sick of people taking from me. I'm goddamn sick of it. I'm not to be taken advantage of. Fuck that. From now on, if you ask for something, not only am I going to say no, but I'm going to ask you to leave. Fuck this shit. My house is not a shopping center you can bartar for things at. I have a few cool things, and I realized the other day that they're rapidly dissappearing, and unfortunately, not by Hannah's mom. By my fucking friends. My friends? How could that be unless they're not my friends, they're just asshole users. Well, no more. I'm sick of it. If you don't want to hang out with me and Hannah just to hang out (fuck, even paying for a piercing, haha instead of asking for a free one) then fuck you. Stay away from my house because you're not welcome here.

I guess when I decided drinking wasn't fun anymore, I also decided I don't like having friends. I don't drink so if I don't want to go somewhere where there's drinking, I don't go anywhere. Nobody wants to just hang out anymore. It's "dude, cool rock and roll beer shit man. Punx rawkerz drink beers and so I am punx rawkerz." Fuck. Yeah, I love people yelling at each other and fights and shit, that's fucking wonderful. I can't wait to get the shit beat out of me for saying the wrong thing because I'm drunk. Fuck yeah. Rock and fucking roll.

call me fatass mcblobicus. I can be found at www.clownpenis.fart/

RUN TO THE HIIIIIIIIIIILLS!!!!!!!!!
RUN FOR YOUR LIIIIIIIIIIFE!!!!!!!!!
I'm so fucking bored. Gonna watch Kurt in like an hour or less. Peace bitches.

put some stink on it. Wow, it's been over a month since I got on this goddamned thing. I shouldn't have come back. Ugh. Anyways, shit stinks like shit here. Whatever, it's better than before. Bored. I got a tattoo, finally. Looks good, gonna get it filled in when it heals. I'm sleepy. Why did I ever do this in the first place? Why did I ever get a myspace thingy? I don't know. Maybe it's the feeling of detachment I feel from the world since I started saying "no, I don't drink." Maybe it's the fact that I just need people to talk to. I don't know anymore. I don't care anymore. Nobody wants anymore piercings, right after we get the right equipment for what everybody wanted before. Nobody wants to stop by just to say hi anymore. There's ulterior motives for everything, which kind of sucks. "hey, just wanted to stop by and say hi, by the way...." ugh. Just fucking say it from the beginning, I won't be offended. I'm more offended by people pulling that bullshit. Whatever, like 2 people are going to read thsi and they aren't even the people who do it. Done peace

I need to get out of this house. I'm getting stir-crazy-hypochondriatic-paranoid-disillusionmented-nutso again. I hate being like this. I feel so drained, so drawn. I've been coughing, but it's not smoking this time. It's actually something going around in this house and getting worse by the day. I'm miserable, my phlegm bucket is always full. Nutri-grain bars and orange juice for me please. No coffee, thanks, I'm a little sick, I can't have it. Soup? Sounds fucking great. Ugh. My guitar's outta tune and I want to play now more than ever. I just learned a new song. It's called "out of tune In My Life". I have nothing to tune it by either, and I'm too tired to look for something. My hair's greasy, my clothes stink, my eyes are watery. If I weren't so crazy I'd buy a gun. Lemme pull out this book, the Buttress of Winsor. How's it goin'? Are you flowin'? I have a book, actually, just every time I lay down to read it, I get violently ill and have to double over hacking and coughing to the point where I think my lungs will explode. Well, so ends my first post in quite a while. I think it didn't go too well...

Your Favorite...
1. gum: extra winterfresh or whatever's good
2. restaurant: los juarritos
3. drink: berry juice by minute made (30%, beitches)
4. season: winter
5. type of weather: snooooowy
6. emotion: sleep
7. thing to do on a half day: what's a half day?
8. late-night activity: sex with my lady
9. sport: foosball
10. city: Oakland
11. store: Dunno

When Was The Last Time You...
12. cried: when I found out there was a boy in Hannah's tummy
13. played a sport: eating count?
14. laughed: when Kurt laughed
15. hugged someone: today
16. kissed someone: today
17. felt depressed: don't remember
18. felt overworked: all the time
19. faked sick: not since I was in high school
20. lied: to my dad, when I said I'm not vegetarian, haha

What Was The Last...
21. word you said: lied
22. thing you ate: juice
23. song you listened to: Johnny Cash, In my life
24. thing you drank: juice
25. place you went to: downtown see's candy
26. movie you saw: half of napoleon dynamyte
27. movie you rented: dr. strangelove

Who Was The Last Person You...
28. hugged: Kurt
29. cried over: Kurt
30. kissed: Hannah
31. danced with: Kurt
32. shared a secret with: Hannah
33. had a sleepover with: haha, Hannah and Kurt
34. called: Chrisco
35. went to a movie with: haha, Megan O. and Spike I think
36. saw: Hannah and Kurt
37. were angry with: Hannah's grandma
38. couldn't take your: couldn't take my what?
39. obsessed over: Hannah's ass

Have you ever...
40. danced in the rain: yes
41. kissed someone: yes
42. done drugs: yes
43. drank alcohol: yes
44. partied 'til the sun came up: yep
45. had a movie marathon: I guess
46. gone too far on a dare: yes
47. spun until you were immensely dizzy: haha, yeah
48. taken a survey quite like this before: yeah boyee

::My Life::
49. name: Goochenstein
50. gender: male
51. birthday: June 21, '85
52. relationship status: nearly married
54. occupation: welfare case

::Play::
55. I'm feeling: upset
56. I'm listening to: Kurt singing to me
57. I'm doing: talking to Hannah
58. I'm talking to: Hannah
59. I'm craving: nothing but cigarettes
60. I'm thinking of: punching the masses of asses drinking molasses (drew)
61. I'm hating: everyone but my specials

::Love::
62. love is: Hannah and Kurt and Eric
63. my first love: Hannah
64. my current love: Same
65. love or lust: both
66. best love song: even the losers-tom petty
67. is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time: no
68. when love hurts, I: smoke cigarettes
69. is there such thing as love at first sight: maybe, just maybe

::Opposite Sex::
70. turn ons: not getting punched in the head
71. turn offs: getting punched in the head
72. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you: haha
73. what kinda hairstyle are you into: having hair
74. what is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you: buy me drugs
75. where do you go to meet new people: nowhere, new people suck, pretencious asses
76. are you the type of person to "Holla" and ask for numbers: if I feel like it

::Picky Picky::
77. dog or cat: dog
78. short or long hair: long
79. sunshine or rain: rain
80. hugs or kisses: both
81. summer or winter: winter
82. written letters or e-mails: e-mail, letters take too long
83. playstation or nintendo: playstation
84. car or motorcycle: car
85. house party or club: house party
86. sing or dance: dance
87. freaky or slow dance: freak

::Lately::
88. how are you today: better than most
89. what pants are you wearing right now: black jeans
90. what shirt are you wearing right now: crass
91. what does your hair look like at the moment: under a hat
92. what song are you listening to right now: nothing
93. how is the weather right now: nighttime
94. who was last person I talked to on the phone: Chrisco
95. last dream I can remember: nothing that's not too weird for this crap

i have kissed someone....
on the cheek. - yes
on the lips. - yes
on their hands or fingers. - yes
in my room. - yes
in their room. - yes
of the same sex. - no
of the opposite sex. - yes
related to me. - no
younger than me. - yes
older than me. - yes
with jet black hair. - yes
with curley hair. - yes
with blonde hair & blue eyes. - yes
with flamming red hair. - yes
with straight hair. - yes
smaller/shorter than me. - yes
bigger/taller than me. - no
with a lip ring. - yes
who was drunk. - yes
who was high. - yes
who I had just met. - yes
who was homosexual. - no
who I didn't really want to kiss. - yes
on a holiday. - yes
who was going out with someone close to me. - no
who was my good friend's brother or sister. - yes
who had been/is in jail. - yes
in a graveyard. - yes
at a show/concert. - yes
at the beach. - no
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water. - no
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with. - yes
with dyed hair. - yes
with a shaved head. - yes
who was/is my good friend. - yes
who was/is in a band. - no
who has tattoos. - yes
who is of a completely different race then me. - yes
in the rain. - yes
in another continent besides where I was born. - no
with an accent. - yes
with an std. - no
on a boat. - no
in a car/taxi/bus. - yes
on a plane. - no
at the circus/carnival. - no
with a missing body part. - no
in the movies. - yes
eskimo style. - yes